Wednesday, August 31, 2016

Where Did My Motivation Go?

It's been several months since I posted last and even before that my posts all seemed to share a common theme; I've lost my way and I'm trying to find my way back.  That's all fine and dandy, and the posts were written with true intentions; but, I am as far from where I want to be as is possible.  I'm ashamed and embarrassed to admit it; but, there it is.  The truth.  

I can't pinpoint the exact moment it happened.  Nor am I really looking to.  I'm not placing blame on anyone or anything; especially not myself.  Do I hold myself accountable?  100%.  I am human.  We make mistakes.  It's what we take away from those mistakes or lapses in judgement that make the difference.  My lapse in judgement or my mistake; however you look at it, has been not only in eating more than I should, but in also eating the WRONG types of foods.  High fat goodies are my downfall and now all those beautiful clothes I bought to celebrate my move to ONEderland now either don't fit or are tight and not flattering.  

40lbs is what I have gained.  Yes, that means I'm still less than my start weight; but, I'm not happy.  It's not about the number on the scale anymore.  Although, that's definitely what motivated me in the beginning.  I feel...blah.  I'm not happy with how my clothes fit, my lack of energy and my overall dragging feeling.  It's time to stop kidding myself.  I know exactly how I got back here and I know exactly what it's going to take to get where I want to be; and frankly that scares me.  I feel like somewhere along the line I lost the support of my family.  Where I could once say "please keep the junk out of the house" and they'd listen, I find I,m no longer taken seriously and the crap food makes its way in anyway.  Case in point, the kids and I ate an entire family sized bag of potato chips and half a tub of helluvagood dip tonight.  Why?!  I would have been equally happy with some baby carrots and hummus.  I haven't worked out in days even though I bought a program I really enjoy.  Again, why?  I honestly don't know.  I tell myself I'll do it tomorrow and then tomorrow gets here and I push it off again.  What the heck is wrong with me?  

I need to find my way back.  Maybe it's baby steps like drinking water every day.  Forget whole 8 glasses thing, let's just start with one!  That's it.  I think that's going to be step one, water.  We all know water is good for you and helps with weight loss.  So that will be an easily measured, attainable goal.  Let's see how well I do!  

Stay tuned for updates, and thanks for reading, if you got this far 😉

Saturday, March 12, 2016

Better Me v2.0 Week 3

This week sucked.  I gained 4lbs!?  I had one bad day, that's it.  Of course, that day was Friday, the day before weigh in.  Not only did I blow points, but I ate some seriously high sodium foods.  I've no doubt a portion of the gain is due to the salt; but 4lbs?  There's only one thing to do...keep on plugging.  I'm owing the gain, wallowing for 30 seconds and moving forward.  I've got this.  I know I do!  

Wish me luck this week.

Saturday, March 5, 2016

Better Me v2.0 Week 2

Woot!  Down another 2.4lbs this week and feeling awesome!  I got out to enjoy the warmer weather with a 6km walk.

Can't wait to see how this week goes!

Monday, February 29, 2016

Better Me v2.0 Week 1

As promised, I'm taking charge and getting back on track.  I'm down 2.3lbd this week!  It feels great to be back and have a goal.  While my larger goals include losing the weight I've gained and ultimately continuing to reach my goal weight; my short term goal right now is to track everything and to change my middle number.  Small yet attainable goals will keep me motivated.

Stay tuned to see how I do this week!

Wednesday, February 17, 2016

Coming Clean and a Fresh Start

 A little over two years ago  I started my weight loss journey and joined weight watchers.   Within the first year, I lost 95 pounds and I was so  beyond proud of myself.  

 Sometime after the first year, I stopped tracking and weighing and measuring.  As a result, I have gained back 40 pounds.   I am disgusted with myself; after working so hard. I threw it away without much thought.   Each week I weigh in and see the scale creep up, pound by pound, and say this week I'll get back on track.  Here we are another year later and  while I can still say I've lost 50+ pounds, I'm not okay with it.  

 It's time to seriously get back on track.   I'm hoping this post is the start of my revamp.   Not only do I want  to lose the 40 pounds I put back on,  I want to hit my goal.   I can, and I will, but I need help.   That's why am going to start blogging again and I hope you'll follow my #weightlossjourney to a #betterme.   I'd love to hear any tips, tricks or anything that's worked for you to help you stay on track.  

My cast comes off  tomorrow and with that I hope I'll be able to get back on the treadmill at least three nights a week.   I'll start off with just walking and hopefully be able to start on my couch to 5K program all over again soon.  

 Wish me luck I'm going to need it!

Monday, November 30, 2015

Day 1, Continues

So many things to see and do.  As first timers, we didn't really know where to begin.  I had booked our Magic Your Way passes online and had selected Fast Pass options for the day; but beyond that, I had NO CLUE what was a must see or the best order in which to do things.  A lot of the day was fly by the seat of our pants; but all in all, we had a blast.

One of the best parts about the time of year we chose to visit, everything was done up for Christmas.  For me, this made it extra special as I was able to combine my two most favourite things...Disney and Christmas.  Needless to say, I was in bliss!

Pickle was super excited to be meeting many of her favourite Disney characters; little did she know I had booked a fast pass for her to meet Ariel, her favourite Princess and who she was most looking forward to meeting!  Before that, we got in a few rides.  This is Pickle and I waiting for our fast pass time to ride Splash Mountain, our first ride of the trip!

Of course, it wouldn't be a trip to Disney without ears!  Pickle was the first to pick out the ones she wanted.

We took the train from Frontierland over to Fantasyland to be in the right place for our visit with Ariel.  Little did we know we'd actually see REAL wildlife on the train ride.  Two young deer actually crossed right in front of us.  Unfortunately, they were too quick for me to snap a photo; but the kids thought it was fantastic.

We made it!  Now onto the big moment...

I don't think Boo was too excited by all these meet and greets; but he was a good sport.  That smile for Pickle says it all.

Our day wouldn't be complete without some more rides.  While Pretty, Boo and I went to ride The Seven Dwarfs Mine Ride, Mr. Twingle and Pickle went to have some carousel fun of their own.

We rounded off the day with a couple more visits: Elsa and Anna and of course the main man himself MICKEY!!!

Overall, day 1 was a success.  We didn't get to see and do everything; mostly because it's impossible but also because we didn't really know what or where to go.  Good thing we have an extra day, as we got a 5 day park pass.  If we're up for it, I think another day at Magic Kingdom is required.

The Adventure Begins; Day 1

I don't know who was more excited for our first day at Disney.  After arrival yesterday, we checked out our AirBNB rental, got some groceries and took time to relax after the long travel day.  Our flight boarded; but, then was delayed almost 2 hours at the gate as customs was so backed up they held the plane.  Not a huge deal; but, for little people who have been up since 5am and are bursting with excitement, it makes for a long day.

Once we arrived in Orlando, we quickly found our bags and rental car and found the way to our home for the week.  I had received email directions on how to get there so we were armed with a plan.  First stop was lunch at the Olive Garden.  We were all famished by the time we got in and it happened to be the first restaurant we found that wasn't fast food.  No one complained as we all love it there.  Next, we found Super Target!  For us Canadians, this is a big deal.  Target tried and failed in Canada and we miss it.  Super Target was something we didn't have at all, and so it was awesome to check it out and pick up some things we'd need over the next week.

Finally, we got to our home.  We totally won the AirBNB gamble.  A great private house, with its own pool and games room, 4 bedrooms and 2 bathroom.  It was the perfect home away from home.  The kids didn't waste any time getting in the unheated pool that night.  But there was no way, I was getting in, lol.

In the morning, we had a big breakfast to start the day off right and then we were on our way.  We made a point of getting car selfies every morning to start our adventure.  

As we were leaving our villa, as I guess the residences in and around Orlando are all their own little groupings, we saw Orlando wild life first hand with this really cool bird just grazing in the grass.  The thing was HUGE!
Our home was only a 20 minute drive from Disney which helped with the "are we there yet" comments from the kids. And what kind of scrapbooker would I be if I didn't take pictures of the signs along the way ;)

OMG, we made it!  I was practically bouncing in my seat.  Mr. Twingle may have told me a few times to simmer down, lol.