Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Just One of 'Em days...

According to Wikipedia the definition of guilt is as follows "Guilt is a cognitive or an emotional experience that occurs when a person realizes or believes—accurately or not—that they have violated a moral standard, and bears significant responsibility for that violation.[1] It is closely related to the concept of remorse."  
As mothers we have an even more profound experience when we feel it is our children we have wronged.  
I am currently going a Mommy Guilt moment.  Mr. Twingle, is out of town and while the twins haven't done anything particularly "bad" their constant bickering, slapping and fighting with one another has worn me out today and I've spent most of the day yelling at them.  Yes, I know yelling does nothing and they don't respond to it.  And yet at the moment I do it, I feel better.  It's a release of sorts.  A way for the pent up frustration to manifest and escape my body.  
So why do I feel guilty now?  They are 5, they're brother & sister and they are going to fight.  I just need to suck it up and move on.  I know that once I have them in bed tonight I'll sit and have a cry because I feel so awful for how I've treated them today.  Tomorrow is another day and I'll do everything possible to make it better than today.

1 comment:

  1. Ugh I had that same feeling tonight Steph. Although Megan is too young for me to actually yell at her, I had gotten so frustrated by the end of the day. After she went to sleep I thought, oh no, did she sense my irritation?? Did she go off to sleep feeling the tension from me?? She's just a little baby!! Tomorrow is another day and as soon as she wakes up, she is getting 1000 kisses!!