Sunday, June 20, 2010

Little White Lies

Today I write.  I am another year older and I hope, another year wiser.  Having my birthday has made me think about my life and where I am;  what I have achieved, what I have yet to achieve and what has been a failure.  

This life evaluation has made me realize that life is full of lies.  As children it is engrained into our heads that lying is wrong.  So why is it, as adults, that lying to ourselves is completely acceptable?

Is it because we think lying to ourselves doesn't hurt anyone?  I say we're wrong if that's the case.

And so I'm coming clean. 

I have struggled with my weight all my life.  I've always lied to myself saying I am big boned, or it's genetics or some other reason to pass the blame.  The truth is, I am not big boned and genetics has nothing to do with it.  While some of the blame can be placed on my parents for not teaching me healthy eating habits at a young age, most of the blame falls on me for not taking responsibility and ownership when I was old enough to do so.  It would have been so easy to start a healthier life-style and exercise routine when I was in my late teens.  The weight would have melted off as my body was young enough to respond quickly.  As I've gotten older the ability to lose weight has gotten more difficult.  That's not to say it can't be done, and I vow here that it WILL be done.  

Starting today I'm changing my relationship with food and with myself.  I'm going to stop lying to myself and I'm going to take ownership for what I put into my body. 

I will post updates along the way.  I'm sure it's going to be a rough journey; but, it's one I plan on completing.

I'm also putting forth a challenge.  I challenge you to come clean with yourselves.  What have you been lying to yourself about?  Put it out there and make a change!

2 comments:

  1. I think it's great that you are doing this! I might just have the motivation to do it myself!!

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  2. What an awesome post, Steph.

    I've sat down so many times to write a post about weight / self esteem but I always stop short...not quite brave enough. Even though I think I need it for some accountability.

    I've got to do something but just can't seem to get motivated - too easy to fall into the same old routine. But want to do better for myself and the kids.

    I'll keep popping by for motivation!

    And, Happy Belated Birthday!!! ;)

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