Friday, December 3, 2010

Musings of a SAHM

I've been very fortunate to be a SAHM (stay-at-home-mom) since the twins were born in 2004.  At the time I was running a home-based online business; but I was and am a mom first and foremost.

What I have learned in those six years is that though rewarding, being a SAHM is not without it's unique challenges; and it's hard.

I listen to my friends that work outside of the home complain about this and that aspect of their job, commute, etc and how I couldn't possibly understand since I'm no longer in the work force.  While I sometimes find their statements totally unfair I sometimes envy them.

You see, it's a rare occasion when I get adult conversation on any given day.  The hellos and good-byes in the school yard just don't count as quality conversing.

Most of my days are filled by wearing different hats.  On any given day I may wear some or all: chef, chauffer, doctor, playmate, teacher, referee, psychologist, psychiatrist, maid, photographer, musician, comedian, judge, jury, volunteer and I'm sure there are more; but, I just can't think of them right now.

More often than not these days, I wear the referee hat most of the day.  The twins are at an age where they are trying to exert their independence and test their boundaries.  They argue and fight with each other and me.  Somedays it takes every ounce of strength I have not to scream and yell at them.  I'm not perfect by any means and somedays I do yell.  But then I feel that horrible mommy guilt afterwards and usually have a good cry once they're all tucked in and "I love you's" have been said and hugs issued.

There are people around me who look at my life and think "what is she doing, I wouldn't want to be in her shoes", and you know what?  I'm okay with that.  Motherhood, or even parenthood, isn't for everyone.  However, don't look down upon me and the life I've chosen simply because it's not the life you would choose for yourself.

I may not be wealthy.  Hell, I may not even have money for a coffee; but, I get paid something a lot better than that.  The unconditional love that I get from the three kids, even on those horrible days where I want to beat my head against a brick wall, is worth more than even the highest paying job or deepest adult conversation.

2 comments:

  1. Thank you! I have the same feelings and knowing someone else feels the same as I do helps me to know that we have the same struggles and the same love from being a SAHM.

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  2. I feel the exact same way! I miss adult conversation from time to time and I think the hustle and bustle of a commute can sometimes be comparable to the running around us SAHM's do. I wouldn't change it for anything! I love being able to be around Brayden, teach him things, and not miss A SINGLE moment.

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